Creepy book and other stuff

1. This is a fucking creepy book. That last post was from it.....in the beginning the "Vours" burn some 10 year old kid on a cross. It may look like a girly book but its definatly not. I shall lend this book to my loev so he can read it and all it's creepiness. I love it though it scares the shit out o fme which makes it fantastic. I'll have some nightmares to look forward to tonight NOT, ita gonna be scary. I would fantastic if my lover were here to comfort me right now :'( but he's not and he can't be. My garndmother was trying to make me get the twilight series (cough cough gag gag) I hate twilight i dont evn have enough respect for it to put the first letter in the title in capitals. Twilight may have been written by a fucked over mourman but that doesnt make it anymore convincing that i should read it. That book is for wannabe vampire fanatics. I already am my own kind of vampire so whats the point of tryig to be something that im not. My grandma's house is kinda of creepy but thats ok. Well its not really a house she lives in an apartment with a nice view of the alley full of drug dealers. How wonderful! I'm getting kind of tired.....I realy hope that i'm able to call my love cody either in tomorrow morning or later tomorrow night. I have to babysit a fivr year old girl....but if you put her in front of the tv she wont move for about 2 hours. She doesnt even care if you wave your hand in front f her face. Her dad is the infamous counsellor Mondy Challmie. He tries all his little brainwashing counsellor tricks on me but it doesn't work. Counsellors can just go suck a dick. Mondy is pretty cool though, at least when hes not doing his counsellor bullshit. I am on msn with Andre Alexander he is a freak he is 47 and still lives in his parents basement lol wait correction he has his own room :) Don't worry baby he's not gonna try and talk dirty with me. Only you can do that the right way ;) He thinks iim crazy for even wanting to be around you but thats his and evryone elses problem i love you and that will never change. To be honest yes i am a little scared that you might hurt me again but i also trust you fully and completly so im just still very confused. All this shit going on in my head is drving me insane. Its getting harder and harder to find a reason to stay on this hell hole of a planet. But I promised i'd wait for you so i'll just have to deal with it

I love you with all my heart

Passage from: The Devouring

When dark creeps in and eats the light,
Bury your fears on a Sorry night,
For in the winters blackest hours,
Comes the feasting of the vours,
No one can see it, the life they stole,
Your body's here but not your soul......

kick ass fucked over poem

The beginning of the end
By: Kiara Carter
In the world of the damned
Where the demons roam free
Light turned to dark almost effortlessly
The home of spirits sentenced to roam the earth for all eternity
Their lives came to an end on that dark gloomy day
When they came upon the blade that would soon decide their fate
It glided so gracefully against his ivory skin
He knew full and well he was committing a sin
He could not control nor deny this feeling inside
He pressed blade upon his wrist then slowly he died
The flame burned in hell higher than before
They knew a mortal’s soul shall walk in once more
The groans and the growls beneath his feet guided him into what seemed to be sleep
He thought it was over but much to his surprise
He found himself staring into the devils eyes
He wielded his pitchfork then plunged it into the mortals chest
The souls bound here shall now belong to him
The throned of hell
He knew he had made a terrible mistake
The blade had decided this mortal’s fate.

Now I know That I can't make you stay But where's your heart? But where's your heart?But where's your...And I know There's nothing I can say To change that part To change that part To change...So many Bright lights, they cast a shadow But can I speak? Well is it hard understanding I'm incomplete A life that's so demandingI get so weak A love that's so demandingI can't speak I am not afraid to keep on living I am not afraid to walk this world alone Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven Nothing you can say can stop me going home Can you see My eyes are shining bright 'Cause I'm out here On the other side Of a jet black hotel mirror And I'm so weak Is it hard understanding I'm incomplete A love that's so demandingI get weak I am not afraid to keep on living I am not afraid to walk this world alone Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven Nothing you can say can stop me going home I am not afraid to keep on living I am not afraid to walk this world alone Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven Nothing you can say can stop me going home These bright lights have always blinded me These bright lights have always blinded meI say I see you lying next to meWith words I thought I'd never speak Awake and unafraid Asleep or dead(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead'Cause I see you lying next to meWith words I thought I'd never speakAwake and unafraidAsleep or dead'Cause I see you lying next to meWith words I thought I'd never speakAwake and unafraidAsleep or dead I am not afraid to keep on living I am not afraid to walk this world alone (Or dead)Honey if you stay, I'll be forgivenNothing you can say can stop me going home(Or dead)I am not afraid to keep on living I am not afraid to walk this world alone (Or dead)Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven Nothing you can say can stop me going home(Or dead)I am not afraid to keep on living I am not afraid to walk this world alone (Or dead)Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven Nothing you can say can stop me going home
That isthespong that is stuck in my head at the moment kind of depressing but i can deal.....this spacebar is really fucked upand its pissing me off. I held a knife up to brodys neck and he screamed heis so queer. Echo tried to jack my smokes lol i was like fuck you. I miss my love so much.....still cant wait for that crazy blasphemous church sex. hee hee are you curious about the story yet?
Hope to see you soon love bye <3

Oh, sweet morning,Is your head not right,Did you hear my warning,This is the time of times,And your head feels like your body,Your mind is close behind,There’s a teardrop on your shoulder,Says this is the time of times,It’s the time of times again,This is the time of times,It’s the time of times again,Oh, sweet morningAnd your head's not right,Did you hear my warning,This is the time of times,And your head feels like your body,Your mind is close behind,There’s a teardrop on your shoulder,Says this is the time of times,It’s the time of times again,The time of times,Yeah this is the time of times
We had some creepy english guy come into our class for some stupid junior acheivment bullshit. I spent 6 hours in one classroom doing stupid stuff for the future so i made it interesting by saying that my role model is charles manson which is true he is very inspiring. my love got all jealous about keanu and i and our little salsa partayyyyy. But thats ok keanu is a total fruitcake lol its all good though you dont have to tell him your mine personally baby he is just a wierdo lol i cannot wait to move in with my love he is so wonderfully amazing. I wrote a dirty story about him and I hee hee, he will have to hear it sometime or ill just have to act it out and hope he responds the right way. well that's it for now......i hope something interesting happens tomorrow other wise i will be really boring on this blog thingy.
All my love to you (you know who you are) bye :)

Oh thats right I am the champion of guitar hero......wabammmm. Sorry my love but you will never beat me mwahahahahahahahaha. Well today was quite interesting, Keanu and I had a little pen ink war in Japanese good times :P...he was being kinda wierd though i was eating salsa and he said "i wonder what would happen if you ate a whole jar of that than kissed someone, would they feel the 'heat'." Kinda hinting at something, dont you think? He knows about my love so why would he say that? He is scared of me though, which is good i instill fear to get respect and so far its working out for me. I wonder where my love is? He should leave a comment! so that people know he's real even though i have no people :'( (tear tear). i am trying to stop smoking, its working out pretty well. I'm down to only 6 a day, woohoo go me! Im kinda hyper right now you know what eating lots of black liquorice does to me hee hee, right love? You would be so hard right now. Im kidding but not kidding haha I love you. Alley is lucky i only caught a glimpse of her today and because of her fleeing from me yesterday im about ready to pin her up against a wall and ask her wtf she is thinking telling crow that she loves, My love. Im not quite sure if he would mind if i put his name on here hmmmmm.....you should tell me man, cause i would like to know. I have the song house of wolves stuck in my hea mainly because my love reminds me so much of a wolf its insane. Damn i love him so much....i would give anything for him to be here sitting on the massage table behind me once again or, right beside me with his hand laying gently on my thigh. Im just having fun reminissing about what was supposed to happen that day. But i know for a fact im ready......CRAZY BLASPHEMOUS CHURCH SEX!!!!!!

Cant wait.

Yours not so truly, voice wihtout a face

You can make comments my love

Anyone can make comments on this just so you know my love <3

Depressed (kind of)

Turn away if you could get me a drink of water cause my lips are chapped and faded, call my aunt marie, help her gather all my things and bury me in all my favourite colours, my sisters and my brothers still i will not kiss you, cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.......... now turn away cause im awful just to see cause all my hair is abandoned on my body all my agony, know that i will never marry, baby im just soggy from the kemo were counting down the days to go, and just keep living and i just hope you know, that if you say goodbye today, ill ask you to be true, cause the hardest part of this is leaving you............... cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.
I cant wait to move in with my love, it may take a while but i dont care ill wait for as long as it takes even if he does not have a house yet and i have to bunk with his sister (my honorary big sis') so it wont be so wierd living at her house for the first little while cause shes fucking awesome lol. It pretty hard for me though I love him so much and not being able to see him without having to hide from the cops and both of our familys is just insane. i have to cal the cop back and say um no i dont want a restraining order on him i just said that to make my parents happy because they were sitting right there. And there might me some way for me to say no he didnt do it but that would just add to the web of lies. I just need him to give me the drive to live though, i would never committ suicide because he explained to me that its just the cowards way out and i believe that. Besides I would never do that to him. I cant help but feel like i dont deserve him. He is one of the rare hot guys who aren't assholes. And im just a girl who loves being a bitch to people and portrays the image of "heart of ice" which is the way i want it to be i hate emotions they are so stupid i dont know why we have to have them all they do is piss you off. What im getting at is that I don't derserve him in my mind. But i know he will say different when he messages me. All i know is that i love him and he loves me, so why am i even thinking this way. im so fucked up. Damn all the confusion in the world. Confusion is what lead to all of the worlds issues. The world is hell but we all have to call it home and try to make the best of it no matter how stupidly hard it is. I found his picture in the old yearbook and its the first thing i look at in the morning and the last thing i look at befoe i go to sleep. He is just so amazing that he cracked the ice surrounding my heart. I cant wait to be with him once again. On earth, in hell or, the unlikely heaven.

CM-My one and only love

This ones for my love, you know who you are. I will give anything for you, i will always be there whenever you need no matter what. I love you with all my heart and that will never change. You make me feel so safe like nothing could ever hurt me, and nothing ever will. I remember the first time i saw you this year. You were standing slumped over and Crow was saying how hes amazed that your shorter that him now, that was amazing but that was just from afar. When i actually got close enough to see your face and your wonderfully penetrating eyes i knew i loved you, and that no one would ever take that away from me. You may look like someone who would never warm up to anyone to other people. But i have seen the soft side of you, the one that makes me feel like i want to lay with you forever. When our hearts are beating as one against eachothers chests the world could end, and i wouldent care the sound of your heartbeat would comfort me through it all. I need you, I need to hear and feel that once again. I'll never obtain what i need to make me feel alive in this world without you. I'm sorry for making stupid mistakes and, im sorry for you thinking that this is your fault. You gave me emotion, the will to live and with you i have no restriction. My life would never be the same without you.
All of my love goes to you forever and, always

G-rated other blog

btw in case you wanted to know my other g-rated version of my blog for english is http://crimsonrosecody.blogspot.com/

How many times do i have to tell you to FUCK OFF!!

God dammitt that stupid fucking bitch is going to die. She went and told cale that she loves cody, my cody, no one elses cody. How many times will i have to tell her to fuck off until she gets it through her head. must i beat the shit out of her to get it through her head? she fucking ran away when i came up to her to ask her what the fuck her problem is. She is such a pussy. I swear to you all next time i see her there is going to be no stopping me she will have her first near death experience. Cody said he wont talk to her anymore which makes me happy. i love him more than air and one day we will rule hell together and create a lovely hell on earth :)

Forbidden love

Never understood how she could mean so little to so many, why does she mean everything to me, is it worth the pain with no one to blame for all of my insecurities how did i ever let her go.
Confusion why does it have to be so confusing? I love cody with all my heart so why did his possesion have to come out on me? It makes no sense how could something so perfect be so messed up at the same time? On top of that im expected to forget he even exists, but how can I? I was ready to give him my mind body and soul and that all changed when the restraining order happened and everyone think he is obsessed with me. But the truth is I am equally obsessed with him. I know everyone will think okay he sliced your arm open freakisly deep so why do you even want to be around him and i want to be around him because i love him and ill never be able to let him go. And no its not cute little puppy love, i would give my life up for him there is no other way to be with him at this point. I saw him the other day and that just confirmed my love for him even more. In 3 years i will be moving in with him and at that point i will have to give up everything im used to right now because my family will never accept him. My dad hates him and wants to kill him but thats his problem he can just go suck a dick. he cant control me forever and i promise you all i will never leave him alone. when i saw him his eyes were a different they were green instead of his usual baby blue, his eyes go green when he is depressed. When i kissed him his eyes turned blue again. He is so amazing. He says im beautiful all the time and he is a total sweet heart contrary to his appearance. and i believe him i know he will only ever tell me the truth and i will always do the same for him. Love always prevails over despite. if anyone thinks im making a mistake feel free to comment but i'll tell you right now nothing and no one could ever change my mind
All my love goes to you cody <3