Forbidden love

Never understood how she could mean so little to so many, why does she mean everything to me, is it worth the pain with no one to blame for all of my insecurities how did i ever let her go.
Confusion why does it have to be so confusing? I love cody with all my heart so why did his possesion have to come out on me? It makes no sense how could something so perfect be so messed up at the same time? On top of that im expected to forget he even exists, but how can I? I was ready to give him my mind body and soul and that all changed when the restraining order happened and everyone think he is obsessed with me. But the truth is I am equally obsessed with him. I know everyone will think okay he sliced your arm open freakisly deep so why do you even want to be around him and i want to be around him because i love him and ill never be able to let him go. And no its not cute little puppy love, i would give my life up for him there is no other way to be with him at this point. I saw him the other day and that just confirmed my love for him even more. In 3 years i will be moving in with him and at that point i will have to give up everything im used to right now because my family will never accept him. My dad hates him and wants to kill him but thats his problem he can just go suck a dick. he cant control me forever and i promise you all i will never leave him alone. when i saw him his eyes were a different they were green instead of his usual baby blue, his eyes go green when he is depressed. When i kissed him his eyes turned blue again. He is so amazing. He says im beautiful all the time and he is a total sweet heart contrary to his appearance. and i believe him i know he will only ever tell me the truth and i will always do the same for him. Love always prevails over despite. if anyone thinks im making a mistake feel free to comment but i'll tell you right now nothing and no one could ever change my mind
All my love goes to you cody <3